Some self-realizations / Sorry Mario, the princess is in an another castle:
Funny experiences are happening here, as I explore “myself” much more than this vast continent. One of the reasons I came this continent was, because I was feeling in a prison about my life in Turkey. Trying to escape from everyone & everything & similar places I go everyday, similar people, similar tasks everyday… I’m a hard & mostly boring person for you, due to living everything inside of me, dreaming a lot, forgetting the reality, being sensitive to surroundings in a spiritual way; beware before you approach. I mostly release this inner world of mine to others, when I’m drinking&enjoying with friends, or when encountered someone else like me 🙂
So I dug a hole out of prison during university years, imagining to come here and be free. Well, finally, yes, I thought I succeeded at first…but I realized, I’m just in a bigger prison now, just I needed some time and explorations to reach the far away borders/walls. Those were just illusions that I was free.
So I’m here again, imagining and planning new plans to escape this bigger prison for future. I have begun to shape some ideas for what’s next. Like dreaming of participating in Dakar one day in future, or my future profession, but most importantly what I’ll create unique in this world as a dream of my life… And I’m sure, when i this escape this prison, I’ll reach to a bigger prison, that’s much harder&farther away to see walls. It’s like a computer game. You just complete a level, then it gives you some bonus powers, sends you to the large upper level to explore, which also have boundaries that’s much harder to see but you know it’s there. Latin America turned out to be an another prison.
I don’t know how much this will continue. It’s a new concept for me. I can’t say something. But dreaming the next level is nice. This actually indicates that, I’m starting to have enough of this travel, I should start digging the new tunnel. I feel like I achieved what I was seeking for in this travel. Sorry Mario, the princess is in an another castle. But adventure and new levels will continue, like Mario did for 32 years since 1985…